Friday, February 25, 2005

Sometimes, or most of the time, I feel like I'm addressing a problem/situation in circles i.e., without any clear decision in mind. What should I do? Embrace the life of uncertainties or to lead the kind of life propagated by society? I have ambitions too btw. Right now, I feel like taking a long break and backpacking around the world. Yes I know that's not easy since I grew up in affluent PJ, have never lived anywhere but in the comfort of my parents' home, have no prior experience of any survival skills and no financial means of doing so. My parents would be in constant anxiety on my whereabouts and safety. Boon will be, well I think it will break his heart to see me leave. And anyone else that matters will think that I'm being rash/stupid/ignorantly courageous in that order. In short, everyone will say I'll never make it out there on my own. I want to prove them wrong but funny, I seem to share their thoughts.

Maybe I should start by camping out in my garden tonight. If I survive this, I'll start planning.

Note to self: Never make decisions when the mind is in a state of mess. But at the same time, do not be afraid of the outcome. Don't complicate something simple. Have strong faith in self. And if all fails, remember that there are people who still loves me. Myself. Mom and dad. Boon. and a Higher being. Yes? No?

Life's learning curve is getting steeper, sigh welcome to reality.

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